J. Garcia

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser

(via noelakaleon)

Just a simple voice mail…

from her turns my day right side up… even if I’m unbelievably super disappointed, pissed off, and heartbroken.

It’s so hard for me not to see you as much anymore, but I guess I’m going to have to give it up and get used to it like the old days. I wish I could really be the perfect boyfriend for you. It sucks not to be perfect. I know sometimes it seems like I’m not getting better as we go along, but I promise I’m trying. I really am learning, but sometimes just slowly. So please be patient with me as you always have and I’ll be patient with you. (I say that all the time, but I mean that) I hope you still love me, honey bear.. :(

It’s hard to believe I’m already applying to the Nursing program.

Just yesterday I was blogging about taking prerequisites and complaining about my Anatomy course. My life flew by so quickly ever since then. Not to mention, I’ve also got me a girlfriend now. I used to complain sooo much about not having someone to share intimate feelings with— about not having a girlfriend. Things have definitely changed a lot ever since she came along. I don’t regret a thing.

I’ve decided that for as long as we’re both in love, I will stay near her and never leave. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I’ve fallen in love already… and I’m only 19. Anybody who’s wise enough to know would tell me I’ve already messed up my life. I probably have in some way or another, but God’s got a plan for all of us. I know He does because I have been very happy with my life so far these past couple months. I’m not necessarily prioritizing her or anything, but I just wanna be close by when I go to nursing school. I’ve decided to apply to only these local nursing schools: Cypress, Cerritos, Long Beach City, and LA County. As for entry level BSN programs, which I’m still giving a shot for the heck of it, I’m applying to LB state and LA state.  

I went to Cypress the other day and it was super impacted. I could hardly believe how many people were applying to the program. Only 40 students are accepted each semester out of the hundreds that apply. Unfortunately for me, I haven’t attended the orientation meeting. I was so clueless on the application process, so all I could do at the time was see the nursing counselor. She gave me papers that covered information on application to the program and its selection process, which is based on a point system. In order to be considered “competitive” on the waiting list, you need 25 points. The points are based on GPA of prerequisite courses and other GE’s. I tallied myself only up to 21 points. Looking at my clearly slim chances, I feel like it’ll take me eons to get into their program. I’m just hoping I get into at least one of the programs close by.

These couple of months to come will be very stressful as I’m going through all these applications. In a year or more, hopefully one of my blogs will have a title along the lines of “It’s hard to believe I’m already in the Nursing program.” Time will just fly again through this semester as I’m taking my Biochem and Psych 16 course. Hopefully I can raise my very sad GPA of 3.577 to a 3.6 at least.

Honey bear, I just want to be able to take care of you when I’m done with all my schooling. Is that okay with you?

Until we meet again..

By far this was the best Summer ever. I don’t even know where to start. :P

(more later)

a better version..

This song is dope, cuhh!!

On Our Way Back from ________ (Not the Mojave desert..) :P

I can’t share with anyone where we went, (you won’t allow me to) but all I can say is we had an incredible time there together and I’m always going to remember those amazing, exciting, carefree, and intimate 4 nights and 5 days we spent. I hope the adventure we had was just the first of many we’ll take on later in our lives.

A Reminder for You (It’s all out of love.)

I don’t really mind how late you get to see this since you haven’t been checking tumblr lately..

I know I made a bad move tonight. I’m sorry and I regret it, but I still do hope that one day you will understand the idea of reciprocity. You should know that you really are at fault at times as well, yet you’re still in denial since you do hate being wrong. Don’t ask me about that either because I really don’t keep a record of your mistakes. I’ve come to learn you’re very stubborn and you want things to be your way the majority of the time. It’s kinda like you always wanting me to pour the friggen cinnamon in the coffee frapps we share at Starbucks, but on a much LARGER scale. Don’t get me started with your chicken breast footlong either. Anywho, for now I have to just be patient, like you asked me to awhile back. Please be patient with me too because I’m not perfect myself. It’s tough on my end, believe me. (I know it is for you too, sorry honey.) We may not understand each other and the things we do to each other at times, but we just have to keep going and put up with one another like we always have because I truly believe we’ll make it one day. And so what if they all say it? I could care less about stupid statistics. The idea of cliche is meaningless. I say it simply because I believe in you and I believe in me. We always made a great team anyhow. 

I love you, honey bear ko. :)

Just a couple more days…

and we’re off to Vegas!