It’s really difficult for me to keep my guard up.

I pray and pray everyday. I just want things to be the way they used to be. 

If I can’t keep my guard up and I feel hurt like this with me just guessing and guessing, I have to put up a wall again. And only for my own good. I don’t know if you can read me, but I obviously haven’t cut the ropes on my end. There’s gotta be a reason behind it, but I don’t know why. I just have to keep praying about it.

And by the way, I do pray for you too. Every single day. I always pray for your guidance (into whatever path God planned for you), for your safety, and that you do well in school. Everyday. I really mean that. It’s just become routine for the longest time now.

I’ve got my med-surge 2 final drawing near (well one more exam before that). Only 4 more day shifts on the med-surge floor at Kaiser for this semester and then I’m onto OB and Pediatrics. Wednesdays 7am-7pm. (And I’m gonna be at KAISER still!!! I’m so excited!!) This week was a total vacation and I can’t believe it turned out that way. I really gotta get back on the ball and finish up at least most of my care plan this weekend. I’m also really hoping to hang a couple more IV’s during the week. I feel comfortable with programming the pumps, but sometimes I goof up preparing those IVPB’s.

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